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Unknown Destinations.

I woke up today: tired, unemployed and a bit lost. I had a dream that I was at a bus station, I had a ticket and I knew I was meant to go somewhere but it had no destination. I was searching around all the buses to try and find the right one to get on but I had absolutely no idea which one was the correct one. In the end, I was just wondering through this station, ticket in hand, wondering if I should just get on a random bus and see where it takes me.ย  colorized-signpost-cropped

This, I have decided is a metaphor for my life at the moment. Being a graduate is both empowering and crippling at the same time. You know that you have a lot to give to the world you just don’t know how to start or how to get people to listen. slide_309036_2710134_free

I know I am not alone, this feeling of lost hopefulness is a symptom of graduate life. Unless you are lucky or rich enough to be handed an amazing opportunity, chances are my dream will resonate eerily with you.

I am trying though and even by writing this I am going towards what I really want. Lucky (or maybe not) for me I am beginning to finally understand what that is. Unlucky for me, is that it seems to be the single most competitive job going and may take me years to crack. (Chances are your dream job is too) Until then, what am I to do?

Do I succumb to minimum wage life? Save up every penny I get and eventually hope to land something I love? Or do I slog on & with rose tinted glasses on, hope that one of my dream employers notices me in the next few months? Or I could travel? I’ve done plenty of that, I know I love it and there is a part of me that could do it forever. Personal decisions are not my strong point. choice

The possibilities are literally endless and nonexistent all at the same time.

I think I am going to (try) and remain hopeful and hope that one day soonย  the destination on that bus ticket becomes clear and I can board that bus knowing I am going somewhere great. destinationUnknown

Until then..I will continue to dream and write wistfully in this blog.

Stay Strong. xoxoxo

 

4 thoughts on “Unknown Destinations.

  1. I’m feeling exactly the same way! It’s quite comforting to know that I’m not the only one going through all of this (in the nicest way possible haha). Good luck, and let’s hope we find something soon!

    Saira x

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    1. Haha ๐Ÿ™‚ You’re definitely not the only one. It’s so easy to feel like you are though, I know I do when I see people around me getting somewhere and I’m still searching! I’m sure we will! Good luck to you too ๐Ÿ™‚ x

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  2. I love your blog! I was never sure what I wanted to do and was driven at times more by the awareness of what I didn’t want. However, keeping an eye open for opportunity, a growing knowledge of myself and the kind of work that would suit me, along with no little luck, led me to pretty much my dream job. Good luck to you!

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